I know most people would just say that I'm introverted and I just need some time to recharge, but I feel like it's something more than that. It was the first time I had ever cried in front of someone else, and I didn't even know why I was depressed. Once when we got back to the apartment after a long day of sightseeing and touristy stuff I couldn't contain myself. Once I went to NY with a couple friends, where we lived together in a small apartment for a week. The next day I spoke the last words to my father as he screamed into the phone repeating the lies from my childhood. That night I said my last goodbye to my mother as she lied to protect my father. When they left I went to my room and honestly the first thing I thought about was wether I would get something to drink and chill in the backyard alone staring into the night or go to my room and try to find something to make myself cry. I could no longer go on pretending our family was just like everyone else. It was fun, I met some really nice people, joked around, talked to almost all of them, made friends. It may only last a day, but sometimes it can. When this happens, you may feel mood swings, or sudden depression.
Especially as a young adult, your brain is growing from being a child's brain to a fully formed one, and many of the electrodes get messed up. Right now I just got back from a get-together with my roommate's friends (around 20 people). Hormones in your brain can cause you to suddenly feel depressed. When I go to a party or just spend a couple hours with friends, I usually get home and feel more depressed than ever. I'm legitimately interested in how this works.
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